The sweedish fish stood no chance

Every now and again I get on a random doodling kick. In a way it helps to sort out what I am thinking about and just gives me a little art project to work on. Someone who was very dear to me once noticed he knew I was upset or thinking about something when I started doodling. Wordless things that should be said I guess. I know right now its because I haven't been painting. My time hasn't been spent as efficiently as it could be. I want to get refocused but am having a hard time getting it all together and rolling down the track. Nothing is driving me right now and that really bothers me. I hope to get a lot of work done in my stay in Paris. Its not like I don't have time here but it seems my days are filled with the gym and oil changes and grocery shopping besides the 9-5 or 9:30-6:30. Always struggling to find the balance that lets me do everything I want to do. In other news, I saw President Obama's speech last night. I am so glad he is in charge. Um I think that's it for now.

My cat made a stink face after smelling his own toes

This is pretty much what I have been up to. On valentines day I worked a trade show and then after went to MOCA and saw half of Sonic Youth which was weird for me because it reminds me of someone very dear to me from my past. I bought this level ring at the gift shop. Before the show we gathered at a friends and we pulled some guitars off the wall and were playing around. This in combination with the show made me get out my Fender and tune it up and so now the tips of my fingers on my left hand are a bit tender. I have been really trying to refocus on my art which has been taken off the back burner packed in tinfoil and shoved to the back of the fridge. Having fun with pen and ink. And well I just love swedish fish I ate my first two victems before I remembered to scan them. Read part of my diary it starts almost exactly 6 years ago. My life has changed so much so many people I consider good friends I was just meeting then. I didnt even have a computer yet. Although this beast I am typing on I got in July of that year….definately time for a new one. Anywho, I got my oil changed today and here is what I did while I was waiting.

Show me what I am working with

I have been occupied lately in attempting to gain some independence. Work being what it has been I have felt the push to move a bit closer to the edge of the nest. I have taken an ad out on www.theknot.com I am hopeful this will prove to be fruitful. In an attempt to make this endeavor more success full my dear friend Lauren has volunteered to revamp my website www.zbimages.com to make it more weddingey. I have to say it was tough to let go of the old one I had worked so hard on not to mention my other images... perhaps I need another website? I now have to print some postcards and once that is done I feel I am going to turn my attentions back to painting which has been neglected lately.

In other news I am going to Paris at the end of March to visit a friend. It will be 10 years since I was there last. My life has certainly changed since then. I got out of a bad situation that was extremely unhealthy and reinvented myself, or closer to the truth found myself. I can hardly believe I was that person but the experience has make me stronger although I will admit somewhat closed off. When I think about what has happened these past ten years....and what about the next. I think Paris will be the start of a new chapter for me.